I don't know what type of help I need, but I need it.
I need someone to talk to, I think. Not that I think talking to anyone actually seems to help - that's why I've not really spoken to people much about it before.
I'm a mess! Words of wisdom like 'Get over it! She's clearly not worth it' are all well and good folks, but it doesn't really help when I think that she is and don't seem to be able to convice myself that she's not! For the last month I've been trying to convice myself that! If I could do that then it would be easy!
It's time like this that I wish I had real friends. People who I could talk to about things without being scared that they thought I was a dick. Maybe it's my fault for being paranoid about my lack of real friends and that the world's just out to use me (because I'm easily used, I know that for a fact). Maybe I've got loads of them and I'm so shit that I don't realise it.
Crap, I've probably just offended all of my readers and they all now think I'm a dick. Bugger! I don't mean to offend anyone, as you are all probably really my bestest friend ever.
I just feel that I'm close to no-one anymore (that's a lie, I'm still close to a few people [who I was scared I wasn't!] - you know who you are :)).
Oh I'm sorry, I don't want to piss you off! If you think you are a friend hug me next time you see me. No really! I'm just sad and venting myself.
And this post makes no sense anymore...